now to sit here…
and try it out what I should write you… it seemed like a hiatus for only two weeks… turned out three months… yet now It seems that time and space have opened another spot to be an intertwined within their own divinity to realized my infinity… he was merely a dream just a figment of my imagination as I wakeup and rose from my slumber… grind off the blankets of maya… it’s usually within my consciousness and I chant and chant ” sat nam”… I realize the veil has been put into violence at the same time I refuse looking at the divine light… I write myself off as unworthy… yet as of right now and on this day… I declare that I am bountiful, blissful, and beautiful!!! and so are you!
Blockade removed…
you just believe you… sat nam…..
love light & peace to all
As the 40th post day of White tantric
drew to an end
Issues from the past
arose deeply with in me
For i’ve thought these issues were settled
Apparently i was mistaken
Now i have to confront how to handle
This sense of Shakti which is trying to awaken
The Shakta with in me…
oh how easily has my father
Kalgidhar Vale
Guru Gobind Singh Ji
Blessed us with such Banis
In order to have this shakti we crave
Oh how my soul yearns for this
But still it appears i do not know
what to do, as the Balance of East and West
Place me with in my Ego’s
Desires which may needed
in order to be create a strong foundation
Grounding in any relationship
Yet now this whole play
A rises with in me guilt
of what have i done…
could it be that my lack
of display of affection could have caused
Oh my beloved i still am not too sure
The Guilt tries to consume…
Oh my beloved Mahakal
May you give me your hand
And destroy this Guilt which is rendering
my Ardhana and Sadhana to you
May your Anath Roop Anaahd Bani of Akaal
Cut through the Duality of me
May your Massive Khanda cut through all
the Negativity which surrounds my subconscious
I call upon….
Oh Sri bhagauti ji and Pritim Bhagauti Ji
Sri Nanak Dey Lai
Phir Angand Amardaas
Ramdaas Hoi Sahee
Arjaan Hargobind nu Sri Har Rai
Sri Har Krishan Diaeya
Jis ditthay Sabh Dukh Jai
Tegh Bhadhur Simraya Ghar Nu Nid Aeeya Pai
Dhan Dhan Sri Gobind Singh Ji Kalgidhar Vale
Khanday Bhattay Di Phul Vale
Dhan Dhan Sri Davasay Atam Saroop
Sri Granth SAhib Ji di Guru Ji di
I call upon yea all to break these bonds
which keep me in shackled with maya
Oh Mahakala, just destroy my doubts
Let me stay in your sanctuary
Jo Kushia Naal
Jakaraa Gavvvayha
Nihaal Oh Javaay
Kalgidhar Maan Diavhay
Singhaa Nihaanga Bungha
Jo Boley Sonay Haal
Sat Sri AkaaaaaaaaaaL
Gur Bar Akal!!!
Note Akaal means the undying and Jakaraa means a call of victory…. or a quick prayer
before doing a task usually dangerous, or odds are placed against them
yet still at the end they were victorious
For calling upon the Sat Sri Akal, the Highest Undying truth
Which is complete elimination of one’s ego and sense of attachment and duality of this world
They are able to connect to Waheguru,
Yet to me the Anhaad Roop of Akaaal simply means “Oh God, may you use your awesomeness and grace and KILL ALL MY
all my neurosis destructive behavior and habits which prevent me from seeing You
seeing you in everything,
may you bless me, with how Guru Ram daas write in So Purakh Paath
Har Appay Thakur Har Apaary Sevak Ji
Oh You are the Master and You are the Servant…
Bhull Chuk Mafi Daas