what can i say , except that i’ve been really bad at keeping up with everything. so much is going on and changing. lets see i’ve moved to San Francisco 
. Consulting business has had a little shaky start. None the less I know things will pick up
new interesting developments in my life?
•working these days
• living in an ashram i really wouldn’t have seen that coming at all really
•taking level 1 teacher training.
For the past couple of days and weeks i’ve had this shabd, stuck in my head and it’s done by Bhai Surinder singh Jodhpuri, go here and listen
but like its been kinda weird couple of days, in reality ever since i turned 25, and well you know how they say in Sikhi or in the terms of Dharma, you just surrender yourself to the Will of God, or Rabh Di Iccha Oye Honda, henna, it all started with that darn Facebook "25 random" things about me" then i started listening all the things that God has put me through, and i’m reading this thinking i’m supposed to die i’m supposed to be dead, i’m not supposed to be here, and then i realized at the age of 20, (being blessed with Amrit), i had gotten my worth and just thath being completely worthless, (nahchijjia di chij) its like oh man…. I remember hearing the Kathas of Bhai Parminder Singh Ji (Surrey Guru Nanak Dev Academy Vale) in his kathas, saying that "We are just sacks of Dirt, Bhagat Kabir says we are Sacks of Dirt, and how even still Guru Gobind Singh Ji Maharaj picked us up and out of the dirt, and made us his sons and daughters, his children, tell me what else could our Guru Ji do for us? He even gave us his whole family.. just for this one thing… this gift of Amrit… how could we even begin to repay him"….
its just that there so much more going on.. and all i can do is just Surrender, and anyways i just got out of the shower, and went to pull a Hukam, i had his heavy day where my heart center was in a funk, with all i had learned and tried to process, then
i just open the PDF and this Hukam comes again…
har jeeo nimaaniaa thoo maan ||
O Dear Lord, You are the honor of the dishonored.
nicheejiaa cheej karae maeraa govi(n)dh thaeree kudharath ko kurabaan || rehaao ||
You make the unworthy ones worthy, O my Lord of the Universe; I am a sacrifice to Your almighty creative power. ||Pause||
Full Shabd…
Here
So 2 weeks back i was driving from Atlanta to espanola NM, and i was listening to Asa Di Vaar in the car. I was like Guru Ji give me a sign that i’ll be ok and awesome in espanola, cause there was really bad weather, than i look behind me and see this awesome rainbow, so i grab my SLR and put in and shot it at around 75 mph.
needless to say please do not try this at home. also i have to say that things have been really busy here at Sikhnet and Espanola in general. Even though this will be my first summer (in 5 years) that i won’t be at Baru Sahib, i still feel as if i’ll be able to learn a whole lot. For not being attached to the form, is the best, for Rabh is Ang Sang.
so after i wrote the prior post, i went outside. Then it started snowing, article in local Atlanta paper i made it to Daras bhen ji’s house. It took a little long than usual, but it was fun driving 70mph in the snow =) i made to her house in about 30 mins =). so then we waited for Gagandeep Veer Ji and Ravneet bhen ji so that didn’t happen. we didn’t end up making out to the raensabhee. so instead we did keertan at bhen ji’s house. I also threw a couple of snowballs in a chola and lohee….. boy it was cold =/ oh yea you all wanted a photo from the other night.
Other than that not a whole lot just sitting around, oh this photo is from 2 weeks back, its in Roswell Gurdwara, Guru Ji is open in Sukhmani Sahib =), other than that not much
Yesterday i rented a Nikkor 10.5 f/2.8 prime lens. Then i went off to Ms. Gurudarshan Kaur’s House, then we end up shooting here is the Photo Gallery . I did not realize how much fun this could actually be.
It just felt so great to be lost in taking pictures with a wide angle lens. Or even striking a smooth pose under the guidance of ms.gurudarshan ji…. afterwards i felt like a little child, tapping in to my divinity. it was such an awesome feeling just to be able to tap in to my creativity…. the whole time, gurudarshan ji and i just kept on laughing the whole time running around like little kids =). it was an unreal experience. I think this may be the next lens i buy.
Lets see Graduate School is going swell, classes are interesting, there are some difficult parts i am not too sure but most definitely will have to work hard for it. Lets see what else i’m still trying to find a job. So yesterday i started up my 40 day sadhana for the post White Tantric Solstice… this morning i had a rough time waking up, so i was not too sure whether i should have committed to my practice and do my practice… then i went to Guru Ji and took a hukam to see whether or not i should do my practice then Guru Ji blesses me with this amazing hukam, oh i love you guru nanak ji….
